Moving On From A Haunted Past of Home and The Inner Caverns of Self Hatred

As a child I moved a lot. Sometimes once a year, sometimes within 6 months of settling we were moving again. We didn't stay in the same area either. We lived all over the south half of the country. When it came to going to high school my parents decided it was time to try … Continue reading Moving On From A Haunted Past of Home and The Inner Caverns of Self Hatred

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Meeting The Forgotten Me 

I have noticed something new about myself lately. It is something I remember noticing as a teenager during a good patch and had since forgotten about. When at 17 I sat in my sunken sponge chair opposite my therapist I shared my revelation, "I have started thinking?" She was the only constant figure during my … Continue reading Meeting The Forgotten Me 

Rules To Live By In Numbers 

I am on holiday. Some people they may ask, 'from what?'; I don’t work but I do study, part-time. I have been off from university for 2 months now, surely that counts as a holiday? I'm going to say no, not really. Firstly, I spent  ~a month of that time being unwell with the dysphoric … Continue reading Rules To Live By In Numbers 

Realising What It Is To Feel Truly Alive

Today I was thankful to myself for having picked up and persisted with exercising regularly. Why? I was thankful for being relatively fit and to my body for allowing me a beautiful experience hiking to and through the Gorropu Canyon in Sardinia. I had the strength and stamina to hike and ramble over rocky and … Continue reading Realising What It Is To Feel Truly Alive

The All-or-Nothing Conundrum

The other day I scrolled through Twitter and stumbled upon a poll that went something like this: 'I feel anxious, do I…?' a) take a diazepam and risk napping and messing up my sleep tonight b) drink a coffee c) other. In my response I opt for other. I suggest mindfulness. They don't 'do' mindfulness. … Continue reading The All-or-Nothing Conundrum

How We “Should” Live

During the last weekend of my hospital admission I was granted escorted leave. Initially I was excited. I was relieved because these are the landmarks of an admission towards discharge: lower levels of observations, escorted garden leave, escorted community leave, unescorted community leave for gradually increasing amounts of time. This is providing you don't end up … Continue reading How We “Should” Live

Moving On From Hypomania

As with every episode, as it comes to an end and I regain the ability to think I start making plans to try to stay well. I reflect on what has been helpful for me in the past or in general. I look at the advice given by others with similar difficulties. I try to … Continue reading Moving On From Hypomania