Meeting The Forgotten Me 

I have noticed something new about myself lately. It is something I remember noticing as a teenager during a good patch and had since forgotten about. When at 17 I sat in my sunken sponge chair opposite my therapist I shared my revelation, "I have started thinking?" She was the only constant figure during my … Continue reading Meeting The Forgotten Me 

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Rules To Live By In Numbers 

I am on holiday. Some people they may ask, 'from what?'; I don’t work but I do study, part-time. I have been off from university for 2 months now, surely that counts as a holiday? I'm going to say no, not really. Firstly, I spent  ~a month of that time being unwell with the dysphoric … Continue reading Rules To Live By In Numbers 

I Have a Big Mind, So I Can Keep Dreaming

I have a very big mind. I don't know if you can quantify the size of a mind seeing as it is abstract. What I mean when I say I have a big mind is that it wanders. I have high ambitions for myself, and sometimes believe in them. I think I'm going to become … Continue reading I Have a Big Mind, So I Can Keep Dreaming

Coming Out of Hospital After 4 Weeks In

From the end of April to late May I spent 4 weeks in a psychiatric hospital, hence my absence. It was a difficult admission and still now I am struggling to quite get my head around what happened, what's happening, and what I went through. I am also struggling to get back to every day … Continue reading Coming Out of Hospital After 4 Weeks In

Melancholy

I'm really struggling at the moment. It's hard to pinpoint with what exactly though. I'm really unmotivated to do anything, and I keep sleeping for a really long time. I'm massively relying on my comfort items at the moment - I am sat with Big Bear as I type. I think something, although I'm unsure … Continue reading Melancholy

Online Support Forum

Hey everyone, I've made an online support forum for everyone suffering and experiencing mental health difficulties. The boards are for everyone experiencing mental health difficulties in some way ranging for psychosis to eating disorders. Please feel free to join up at http://deardarlingsanity.boards.net

Abandonment

So we broke up. This has triggered all sorts of abandonment schemas and behaviours. I've self harmed and have been on and off suicidal. This is evidently BPD and not Bipolar reaction as I'm otherwise stable with my bipolar now. I also spoke about something that concerns me from childhood that is very difficult to … Continue reading Abandonment