The Too Busy to Sleep Phase

I'm sure somewhere there is some wisdom on not sleeping that goes along the lines of, "if you can't sleep, get up and do something until you're tired". This is exactly what I do when I can't sleep, which doesn't happen all that often for me. I am a good sleeper. I always have been. … Continue reading The Too Busy to Sleep Phase

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I Have a Big Mind, So I Can Keep Dreaming

I have a very big mind. I don't know if you can quantify the size of a mind seeing as it is abstract. What I mean when I say I have a big mind is that it wanders. I have high ambitions for myself, and sometimes believe in them. I think I'm going to become … Continue reading I Have a Big Mind, So I Can Keep Dreaming

Coming Out of Hospital After 4 Weeks In

From the end of April to late May I spent 4 weeks in a psychiatric hospital, hence my absence. It was a difficult admission and still now I am struggling to quite get my head around what happened, what's happening, and what I went through. I am also struggling to get back to every day … Continue reading Coming Out of Hospital After 4 Weeks In

The Writing on the Walls

There is one part of my madness that confuses me. I am told, by my voices that they are trying to communicate with me. They tell me to grab a pen, and to follow their instruction. Usually this winds in scrawling on the walls. It is often dark, or utter confusion. I don't understand this. … Continue reading The Writing on the Walls

Songs of My Journey: 2015, I’m a Fucking Superhuman, You’ll See!

It became established prior to march that I'd possibly had manic episodes. Last year in the summer prior to my depression I'd had a brilliant period where I'd had a well being epiphany. Everything was wonderful, and how could I not see how brilliant the world was before? And how amazing was I? So I … Continue reading Songs of My Journey: 2015, I’m a Fucking Superhuman, You’ll See!

Songs of My Journey: 2015, A Staring Paralysis

I entered the year in the early stages of what progressed into a debilitating depressive episode. I had to take a month out of college so I could stay alive at home and have the burden of no further responsibilities whilst i lay paralysed face planting the sofa. The furthest I managed to go was … Continue reading Songs of My Journey: 2015, A Staring Paralysis