The Up Down Down Down UP Phase

:The Phases and Faces of Hypomania Hypomania isn't always fun and games. It doesn't necessarily mean that you are super happy over nothing for too long. Sometimes it can become dysphoric. Hypomania is like being revved up on overdrive, therefore if something upsetting happens it can turn to rage extremely quickly. In a flick of … Continue reading The Up Down Down Down UP Phase

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I Have a Big Mind, So I Can Keep Dreaming

I have a very big mind. I don't know if you can quantify the size of a mind seeing as it is abstract. What I mean when I say I have a big mind is that it wanders. I have high ambitions for myself, and sometimes believe in them. I think I'm going to become … Continue reading I Have a Big Mind, So I Can Keep Dreaming

Coming Out of Hospital After 4 Weeks In

From the end of April to late May I spent 4 weeks in a psychiatric hospital, hence my absence. It was a difficult admission and still now I am struggling to quite get my head around what happened, what's happening, and what I went through. I am also struggling to get back to every day … Continue reading Coming Out of Hospital After 4 Weeks In

Melancholy

I'm really struggling at the moment. It's hard to pinpoint with what exactly though. I'm really unmotivated to do anything, and I keep sleeping for a really long time. I'm massively relying on my comfort items at the moment - I am sat with Big Bear as I type. I think something, although I'm unsure … Continue reading Melancholy

Abandonment

So we broke up. This has triggered all sorts of abandonment schemas and behaviours. I've self harmed and have been on and off suicidal. This is evidently BPD and not Bipolar reaction as I'm otherwise stable with my bipolar now. I also spoke about something that concerns me from childhood that is very difficult to … Continue reading Abandonment

Self Love on Valentine’s Day <3

It’s valentines day. This day can be really fun for some, and hard for others, but I want to put the message out there that the most important person to love is yourself. Self love is a difficult one, especially for those with mental health problems. Often we berate ourselves, hate ourselves or even worse, … Continue reading Self Love on Valentine’s Day ❤

The Thing About Good Moods and Bipolar

The thing about bipolar is you never now when a good mood is just that, a good mood, or the start of a mania episode. You see, you all know I was depressed lately. My pattern is that I get depressed, then manic - but not always. Certainly not always, CERTAINLY not always. In fact, … Continue reading The Thing About Good Moods and Bipolar