Work On Your Mind It is your biggest barrier and your biggest tool to self realisation and achieving fitness goals is your mind. I've said it a few times and I'll say it again, physical activity and incorporating it into your life can be just as much an emotional and mental challenge as it is … Continue reading The Puzzle of Movement: Find Your Mind
My last appointment was my first appointment with my new psychiatrist. As is customary with meeting new health professionals the appointment follows the usual questions, and a recital of my life story, and my perception on that. We covered that I have quite a substantial history with eating disorders. She turns around to me and … Continue reading Forget ‘Body Image’ It’s All About ‘Body Love’
For years I had been diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder. I dissociated, and at one time in my life, I engaged with many of the unhelpful coping mechanisms that accompany the disorder: binge eating, anorexia, bulimia, drinking, cutting, and overdoses. I was constantly trying to understand, and ease the immense pain that I felt from … Continue reading Switching Psychiatric Labels: And All The Resulting Qualms.
It's like being locked between four walls. Each with subdivisions, and a double locked for between you and the world. The windows open by a crack, through which you reach your arm, cigarette in hand, and squeeze your face out as much as possible to get each cheeky puff. They say you're not crazy, but … Continue reading My Itch to Exercise
Relapse Symptom: Feeling anxious and out of control: This is a more generic warning sign that is unrelated to food, but eventually winds up becoming all about food if left ignored; as soon as I'm feeling out of control of my life, or my self then I need to do something in order to feel … Continue reading Anorexia – Relapse and Prevention: Anxiety and Control
I've dug out an old diary. It's my diary from last year, and in it I wrote a whole page dedicated to 'Hopes For 2014'. They were: 1. Start and access to science course at college. 2. Get discharged from CMHT and mental health services. 3. Reach 5th anniversary in my relationship. 4. Buy Wifey … Continue reading Hopes and Resolutions
It's the end of the year, almost. The 31st of December always brings about a sense of reflection on the year gone by, and a presence of focus for the future year to come. I remember last year, this time last year exactly I was really scared of the new year. I had it in … Continue reading The End of 2014, but Hello 2015!