I am on holiday. Some people they may ask, 'from what?'; I don’t work but I do study, part-time. I have been off from university for 2 months now, surely that counts as a holiday? I'm going to say no, not really. Firstly, I spent ~a month of that time being unwell with the dysphoric … Continue reading Rules To Live By In Numbers
Today I was thankful to myself for having picked up and persisted with exercising regularly. Why? I was thankful for being relatively fit and to my body for allowing me a beautiful experience hiking to and through the Gorropu Canyon in Sardinia. I had the strength and stamina to hike and ramble over rocky and … Continue reading Realising What It Is To Feel Truly Alive
Work On Your Mind It is your biggest barrier and your biggest tool to self realisation and achieving fitness goals is your mind. I've said it a few times and I'll say it again, physical activity and incorporating it into your life can be just as much an emotional and mental challenge as it is … Continue reading The Puzzle of Movement: Find Your Mind
My last appointment was my first appointment with my new psychiatrist. As is customary with meeting new health professionals the appointment follows the usual questions, and a recital of my life story, and my perception on that. We covered that I have quite a substantial history with eating disorders. She turns around to me and … Continue reading Forget ‘Body Image’ It’s All About ‘Body Love’
For years I had been diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder. I dissociated, and at one time in my life, I engaged with many of the unhelpful coping mechanisms that accompany the disorder: binge eating, anorexia, bulimia, drinking, cutting, and overdoses. I was constantly trying to understand, and ease the immense pain that I felt from … Continue reading Switching Psychiatric Labels: And All The Resulting Qualms.
It's like being locked between four walls. Each with subdivisions, and a double locked for between you and the world. The windows open by a crack, through which you reach your arm, cigarette in hand, and squeeze your face out as much as possible to get each cheeky puff. They say you're not crazy, but … Continue reading My Itch to Exercise
Relapse Symptom: Feeling anxious and out of control: This is a more generic warning sign that is unrelated to food, but eventually winds up becoming all about food if left ignored; as soon as I'm feeling out of control of my life, or my self then I need to do something in order to feel … Continue reading Anorexia – Relapse and Prevention: Anxiety and Control