I have a very big mind. I don't know if you can quantify the size of a mind seeing as it is abstract. What I mean when I say I have a big mind is that it wanders. I have high ambitions for myself, and sometimes believe in them. I think I'm going to become … Continue reading I Have a Big Mind, So I Can Keep Dreaming
In the pub one December evening in 2014 a friend and I decided it would be a really good idea to sign up for Tough Mudder. We decided it would be fun, it would be a real laugh and a challenge that was totally do-able. We 100% had it in the bag already, after a … Continue reading That Tough Mudder for MIND
I wrote this in hospital whilst I was on a 5(2). I didn't know if I was going to be sectioned again, but the sentiment remains the same. I am home now. Under HTT, but this is my poem about being in hospital and kept there against your will.
I entered the year in the early stages of what progressed into a debilitating depressive episode. I had to take a month out of college so I could stay alive at home and have the burden of no further responsibilities whilst i lay paralysed face planting the sofa. The furthest I managed to go was … Continue reading Songs of My Journey: 2015, A Staring Paralysis
The other day I took my body measurements. Once upon a time this was an almost daily ritual over which the loss of a quarter-inch would be rejoiced for a moment before becoming again, ‘not small enough’. To catch me tape measure in hand would have been an invasion into the depth’s of anorexia’s secrecy … Continue reading The Story of My MIND Fundraiser – and the importance of MIND in the UK.
If I look over my diary from this time, it isn't pretty. I started a private diary on my computer because I was being followed in the cyber world. I was being stalked by none other that my dad. I had no space again. I couldn't breathe again. I became scared again. Walking around my … Continue reading Songs of My Journey: Early 2014, A Terrorising Depression
I never know very much about pop music, and I seldom pay attention to artists but Demi Lovato came onto my radar, unfortunately for the X Factor cover of her song Skyscraper. I listened to the lyrics and I knew they were poignant, so I listened to her version and looked into who this artist … Continue reading Songs of My Journey: 2013, Like I’m Made of Glass