The All-or-Nothing Conundrum

The other day I scrolled through Twitter and stumbled upon a poll that went something like this: 'I feel anxious, do I…?' a) take a diazepam and risk napping and messing up my sleep tonight b) drink a coffee c) other. In my response I opt for other. I suggest mindfulness. They don't 'do' mindfulness. … Continue reading The All-or-Nothing Conundrum


The Crash Bang

: The Phases and Faces of Hypomania The tiredness hits. You're grateful and glad to finally feel tired. It means you might actually sleep a decent amount. There is no predicting whether you will sleep properly or manage just a few hours again. If you sleep a whole night, you may wake up with your … Continue reading The Crash Bang

I Have a Big Mind, So I Can Keep Dreaming

I have a very big mind. I don't know if you can quantify the size of a mind seeing as it is abstract. What I mean when I say I have a big mind is that it wanders. I have high ambitions for myself, and sometimes believe in them. I think I'm going to become … Continue reading I Have a Big Mind, So I Can Keep Dreaming

Songs of My Journey: Early 2014, A Terrorising Depression

If I look over my diary from this time, it isn't pretty. I started a private diary on my computer because I was being followed in the cyber world. I was being stalked by none other that my dad. I had no space again. I couldn't breathe again. I became scared again. Walking around my … Continue reading Songs of My Journey: Early 2014, A Terrorising Depression

Life of the Living Dead

Sat, slumped against the wall, I have bad posture but I don't care much for my posture right now. I'm sat in silence, and have been for hours; I don't care much for music, or talking right now. Space occupies my every hazy thought, wisp of a thought and thought of a thought; I don't … Continue reading Life of the Living Dead