Moving On From A Haunted Past of Home and The Inner Caverns of Self Hatred

As a child I moved a lot. Sometimes once a year, sometimes within 6 months of settling we were moving again. We didn't stay in the same area either. We lived all over the south half of the country. When it came to going to high school my parents decided it was time to try … Continue reading Moving On From A Haunted Past of Home and The Inner Caverns of Self Hatred

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Rules To Live By In Numbers 

I am on holiday. Some people they may ask, 'from what?'; I don’t work but I do study, part-time. I have been off from university for 2 months now, surely that counts as a holiday? I'm going to say no, not really. Firstly, I spent  ~a month of that time being unwell with the dysphoric … Continue reading Rules To Live By In Numbers 

Moving On From Hypomania

As with every episode, as it comes to an end and I regain the ability to think I start making plans to try to stay well. I reflect on what has been helpful for me in the past or in general. I look at the advice given by others with similar difficulties. I try to … Continue reading Moving On From Hypomania

The Crash Bang

: The Phases and Faces of Hypomania The tiredness hits. You're grateful and glad to finally feel tired. It means you might actually sleep a decent amount. There is no predicting whether you will sleep properly or manage just a few hours again. If you sleep a whole night, you may wake up with your … Continue reading The Crash Bang

The ‘Restless and Repetitive Motions’ Phase

:The Phases and Faces of Hypomania The restlessness can become very intense. You want to sit down and chill out but you need to keep moving. It feels slightly compulsive, like if you stop moving you'll die. However, there is less logic than that painted scenario, and less purpose. There seems no purpose to this … Continue reading The ‘Restless and Repetitive Motions’ Phase

The ‘Sharp to Sludge Thinking’ Phase

:The Phases and Faces of Hypomania All these ideas you had that were great, they speed off into the distance. Whilst trying to catch it from running off a lorry of other exciting ideas crashes into your side. Now there are two to catch. Another drops on you like a bomb of catastrophe, and between … Continue reading The ‘Sharp to Sludge Thinking’ Phase

The ‘I Want It To Stop’ Phase

:The Phases and Faces of Hypomania At this stage a dose of desperation sets in. You miss relaxing. You miss being able to sit and watch TV. You miss being able to listen to music and enjoy it because too much stimulus goes past the point of being enjoyable, and it becomes painful in an … Continue reading The ‘I Want It To Stop’ Phase