I’ve spent a lot of this past week spaced out and dissociated. It started to become a really stressful and unpleasant experience for me, hence I started to overdose to try and make it stop. Nothing I was doing was helping. I tried going for walks, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1 – and feeling the wind in my hair, focusing on objects to describe them but it was impossible because even with my glasses on when I tried to focus they blurred. When I tried to feel the cold of the wind on my face I could barely feel it at all as if I was feeling through a vale of mist – so I wrote about it in a poem, and still, still I felt dissociated.
What brought me back? I think it was going for a run because I’m putting my body through so much physical sensation but not too much to traumatise myself, it’s enough to bring me back and give me an emotional high that brings me out of the numbing place that dissociation takes me to. I haven’t looked into this to see if there is research confirming that this is an effective method for grounding – I was going to use trial and error to see if it continus to work for me but in the meantime I might look into it.
Having taken a quick look at some sites, there are numerous “grounding exercises” that can be done, many of which I had tried yet still I remained in a dissociated state. I’ll post the links though in case they’re helpful for others: