Songs of My Journey: 2015, A Staring Paralysis

I entered the year in the early stages of what progressed into a debilitating depressive episode. I had to take a month out of college so I could stay alive at home and have the burden of no further responsibilities whilst i lay paralysed face planting the sofa. The furthest I managed to go was to the kitchen table where I sat, staring. For days on end of stare at the same empty space of wall, which did nothing but stare back at me. I wanted to die. I wanted to kill myself but I didn’t have the energy to be bothered. I wasn’t washing. I wasn’t eating. I wasn’t exercising. Nothing mattered to me anymore. I did however manage to watch the first season of Orange is the new black. The theme song was quite catchy and this was the only thing to break my silent paralysis.

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